Him III

Hi gais.

So tonight idk who else i need to tell abt. I miss him. I miss him a lot. Srsly really really miss him. Today i just spent my day by stalking you. Stalking ur favourites. There a lot tht u fav my tweet when we were unmention. By reading them my tears uhm cant hold it. I miss how close we are how annoying we could be how sweet abt both of us till someone jealous and wanted to kill us. Haha. I miss how bad r u on me haih. Idk. I miss everything about you. We r 360 degree different now then before. Either i changed or u changed? I know im not the old who always be patient with ur wrong doings, ur busy, hm. I just cant hold my feelings. I hate you yesterday! But i miss you today. Idk! Its already a weeks we didnt contact each other after the argue. Yes i was ego! But not only me :) both of us. U know aite this is the first time ive been in love with someone and deeply in love? Although its had been a year we were together I still have my shyness towards u. I dont want to start the conversation first. Like i said. I still shy with u and i dont want to see me to be so "hegeh" with u. I just want it simple and smooth. Can u understand me like i understand u? What ever they said abt u idontcare. Cause ppl can changed. I love you the way u are. Wht they said is true cause i can see it through ur eyes. Yes. But its okay. U can changed. Ohmy god. Pls give me some strenght to control my missing towards u. I MISS YO SO FUCKING DAMN MUCH dude. Can u hear me? Haih. Idk wht to say. After reading ur caption i just feels like we were nothing now. I left u, u left me. But! Without any words. I dont want this. But i had to. Its all abt feeling. Im not selfish. But ive been hurt enough. Its okay. My heart still insist to want u back in my life and my mind keep repeating the words that kills me to have u back in my life. I just dont know wht to do. I wnt you! I wnt us! How stupid i am. Stupid! Ugh! Do you still love me like i do? Do u still want me like i want u? Hm. Idk how to describe my feelings right now. All i know is everytime we were argue ive always said "i love you no matter what" and see what ever u hurt me i still in love with the same person. I love you so much baby and tonight i just lay in my bed by thinking of u and start crying cause missing you like crazy. Hm :')

Lovə aint easy like you think. 

xoxo.M